Random post full of excitement and hopefullness :)

This weekend has been amazing! I guess I'll start from the beginning :)
Friday: For one thing, I got to leave school early, which is a highlight in itself. But where I left to go to made it even better. I was on my way to a broadway workshop, with Sutton Foster!!! Oh my goodness she's amazing. And she is so down to earth, I felt like we could of been such good friends! To be honest I wasn't entirely impressed with anyone who sang for her, but I enjoyed learning from the critique she gave them. One of the big things I learned was that in a solo concert setting, you should keep your movements subtle and to a minimum, instead of in a show setting where you're expressive with movement. It was cool to see her apply the things she taught in the workshop in her concert that night. And then after the concert, my amazing parents bought me her CD! I got it signed and was able to talk to her for a few seconds, and get a picture with her. It was a great night :) Oh, and Friday night was the season 3 premiere for Sanctuary, which is one of my absolute favorite shows! I'm proud to be a scifi geek!
Saturday was eventful as well. We were invited to visit with my Mom's cousin James, and his wife Martha. Let me tell you, they live in the MIDDLE OF NOWHERE! It was like were in the Witness Protection Society. Anyways, after we survived driving down their grassy driveway(which James said would test our religious faith. LOL!) we finally made it to their house. Their house is so cute. Margeret has a room that she uses for her hobby of weaving(I know, weaving!), and their house has a very old fashioned homey feel. They don't have a TV, so it was VERY quiet! Almost too quiet. But for the day, it was alright. Their vegetarians(so cool!), so we ate sandwiches made out of homemade bread that they made themselves, organic cheese, and lettuce. We also ate pickled vegetables(which I love!) and this homemade vegetable soup that Margeret made. Oh my goodness it was so great. After eating and talking, we went out for a hike on their property. They have ninety acres of beautiful forest, and they have a little hiking trail that they walk their dog on. It was beautiful. I couldn't stop taking pictures! The leaves were just beginning to change, so it was just..amazing. Though the trail was really steep, I survived!(thank you Zumba classes) After we survived hiking, and we all made it down the hill, we came inside and looked at old family pictures. James made coffee, but he and Mom got so engrossed in the pictures, we all forgot about it! It was alright though, looking at pictures was definitely better than coffee. Though when we finally remembered about the coffee, we all sat down and ate Margeret's sour cherry pie(which was the BEST fruit pie I've ever eaten, honest!) and drank the coffee. After much talking, the sun started to set, which signaled that it was time for us to head home. We went outside, said our goodbyes, and set off towards home. It was a really great visit overall :) For just meeting them, they are really cool! Who knew Mom had cousins? I guess I didn't, shame on me!
And then there was Sunday: My King's academy orientation. Best. Day. Ever. I met all of the High School teachers, I got to tour the school, and I got to eat lunch in the cafeteria before touring the dorms! It was great. And I got to meet the band and art teachers, and see Mrs. Thomas(which made my day) again. It's so nice to know that I can look foward to being with a choir teacher who I can share a mutual respect with, and who will be my mentor and friend. She said that she couldn't wait for me to be in her choir! Me! Mrs. Bowen really couldn't care less, if you ask me. Goodness if she ever saw my blog I would be dead. But you know what? I'm not afraid of her anymore. In 7(yes, Seven!!!) weeks, I'll be away from her from good. And I won't even turn back. OH MY GOODNESS I'M SO EXCITED!!! I didn't want to go home when the orientation was over. Oh, and guess what? I got a 7 out of 9 on my intelligence test(with 5 being the average score). :D There is a brain in my head! And a pretty smart one, too! Ahh it'll be so refreshing to be taught under teachers who will treat me as an equal and appreciate me for who I am, and not as just another student.

Thursday, we meet again....

AGH I'm so sleepy. And pathetic. I didn't even finish my Algebra II homework last night. I just kind of fell asleep with it next to my bed. I know, pathetic. But anyways, it's Thursday morning, and I'm dreading school. Though what else is new?
I haven't learned a thing in chemistry, because she likes to rant about her lack of technology.
I've learned a lot in U.S History, but the teacher's too happy and overly animated personality scares me at times.
There's an average of 6-8 kids sleeping on a typical day. Those kids run around and play nerf football while climbing out of the windows when the teacher's not there.
We're FINALLY getting somewhere in choir, now that the teacher's figured out how lazy everyone's become and how much we suck.
So yeah, that's my typical school day. Sounds like fun, right?
Oh I just remembered I have something awesome to tell you!!
Guess what I did on Sunday?
Just guess!
I went to Madame Butterfly with Dad!!!
It was. Amazing. They brought in from Korea their Butterfly, and their Suzuki was from Japan. They were my favorites. The emotions potrayed on their faces could be seen and understood all the way up to the top row. And their voice. OH MY GOODNESS YOU SHOULD OF BEEN THERE THEY WERE INCREDIBLE! I strive to have a voice as trained as theirs one day. It was amazing. The only thing I wasn't impressed with was their Pinkerton. His voice wasn't as strong as the other tenors, and for an opera singer, his space was more Tennesseish than Italian. Though I have to hand it to him, his Italian was beautiful, so I guess that's why he wasn't as loud: it's not easy to spit out all of that Italian! But anyways, Madame Butterfly is a beautiful opera, and I'm so glad I got to go see it with my Dad! :)
Ok I gotta go. It's 7:00 and I better get ready or else I'll face the wrath of my mother, who does not get enough sleep(thanks to me and my brother hehe we're really pathetic)
But yeah, I gotta go! Hopefully I'll get better with posting.(one day!)

Goodbye, 15. Hello 16!

Whoo. Guess who's going to be 16 tomorrow?
Me!
I'm very excited.
I felt like I needed to share a few thoughts regarding my reflections of the past year...
haha not! I just liked how that sounded.
Seriously though, I can't believe I'm going to be 16. Goodness my life has flown by so far! Though I'm so excited for what this new chapter in my life is going to bring. I hope:
I lose ten pounds. PLEASE?
To become a better singer, actress, and dancer.
Become closer to the friends that I need to be closer to me.
To get my driver's license! Or at least my permit!
To become a better student. Kind of.
I just hope that this year is as good as the last, if not better! I'm so thankful to have the friends that I have, the talents that I have, my family, I'm just thankful for EVERYTHING!
And I can't wait for my family birthday part tomorrow :D
So goodbye, 15. It's been fun. I'll never forget you. And hello 16! I hope we have a great ride this year, and that this year is very memorable!
See ya tomorrow, when I'm 16 years old!

Pfew!

THE GLEE PREMIERE IS ON!
And I'm updating you on the last two weeks in between reading chemistry, and commercials. :)
Ok it's a commercial!
These last two weeks have been crazy. Two weeks ago I toured a private school about an hour away from where I live, and I absolutely fell in love with it. And the choir teacher. She was so...nice. Definitely what I was looking for in a mentor. And the school is beautiful, it's really old, and it has an amazing view of the mountians! Well, after much praying and lots of discussing, my family and I have decided that I will be transferring there next semester! This means no more:
Mrs. Bowen!!
imature peers.
Disguisting bathrooms, classrooms, and auditorium.
Feeling of not belonging.
Did I mention imature peers?
Anyways, I'm so excited. I feel like I'm going to be so much happier there :)
Sorry, I'm feeling ADD. Another commercial break!
Let me think...what else have I done? Oh! My super September Saturday!
Ever year my parents take me on vacation for my birthday, and that's what we call it!
This year we rented a cabin up in the Smokey Mountians. The name of the cabin was "Heavenly View", and it sure lived up to it's name! The view was breathtaking. And we had an air hockey table, and a hot tub, and rocking chairs on the porch! And that night, I cuddled up on the couch with my family and watched Back to the Future, and you could see the full moon through the top window! It was amazing. I wish we could of stayed there for more than just one night. The beds were so comfortable! And I got up at 7 am, just to watch the sunrise over the mountians. It made me smile so much. That morning Dad made sausage and eggs in our cabin kitchen, and we had a family meal in the cabin! Then we had to leave. Sadness.
After we left, we drove to the outskirts of Gatlinburg, where there was an entire community of artists! There were stores after stores of paintings, jewelry, and these GORGEOUS copper sculptures! I really wanted to get one, but they were so stinkin expensive. A beautiful carved rose was ten dollars. Oh well. Anyways, we looked around for about an hour and then went on our merry way. After getting back on the road, we drove up to the National Park. Even though we live so close to Great Smokey Mountians National Park, we've never been before! So this new view of the mountians was absolutely incredible and breathtaking at every turn. And I mean turn literally, the drive was steep! But we finally made it to Clingman's Dome, where we hiked to to top of the mountian to get to the lookout tower. The climb was...intense. I've never walked a path that steep. And because of the thin air, I kept running out of breath, and we had to stop a lot. But once we got to the top, it was so worth it. I can't even describe the view to you. Let me just say, God is very creative. I've never known a better artist! After taking tons of pictures(to prove we made it to the top!) we headed back to the car, and drove for the Chimney's. We parked at this picnic spot Mom had been to before, and found a creek that was just telling us to play in it! I took off my shoes, Andrew put on his bathing suit, and Dad....he just jumped right in! After slipping a couple of times, taking a huge leap over some rapids, and discovering some cute crawfish, we were exausted!(and I was sore!) We were ready to go home. We said goodbye to the park, headed back to Pigeon Forge, stopped at Popeye's and Sonic for dinner(of course.) and made it home in time to study chemistry.(not by choice of course) It was an amazing weekend :)
Glee's offically been over for 45 minutes, and now I'm watching the results show on Dancing with the Stars.
Oh and another thing: Guess who's going to be 16 this Friday? Me! I'm pretty excited :) Though I really like being fifteen. Am I too young to say that I don't like getting older? I'm perfectly content being a youthful teenager who acts like an adult, can't I stay like this? Though to be honest, I say this every year. And I'll probably love being 16 as much as I LOVED being 15. *sigh* What am I going to say when I'm twenty? Thirty? FOURTY? AGH Life is going by so fast, I feel so old! haha
I better go, Mom's going to bang on my door at any moment and yell at for me for locking it. But hey, if I didn't lock it, I'd never have a chance to post!
Oh and another thing? It's going to be in the nineties on my birthday, I'm so excited! I've never had a summer birthday before. Thanks Mom, for having my birthday TWO days after the last day of summer! haha :)

Wow. I'm pathetic with entries :/

Sorry I haven't been on for a while. These first four weeks of school have been pretty intense. Oh, this Labor Day Weekend was AMAZING. Three words:Governor's School Reunion!!!! It was amazing. Here's a brief overview.

Riding with Mom and Dad to Tori's

Riding with Tori, Laura, and Tori's parents to Miranda's in Nashville

Getting smothered with hugs by everyone who was there!

Singing, eating, and watching the Opera Finale DVD. Can I just reemphasize how much I freakin' miss that class? You just have no idea. I cry every time I think about Governor's School. That subject will be saved for another post

Hair Straightening by the ever fabulous David Keck. Look him up on Youtube. He's a star.

Stargazing on the golf course. Favorite moment of the night.

Waking up three times in the middle of the night to hear tons of talking and spastic laughter. You'd just have to be there.

Doughnuts for breakfast! oh nom nom.

Watching the majority of people slowly leave :(

Zaxby's for lunch! I know we were being fatties. haha

Waiting for Laura's Mom to pick Laura, me and Tori up on the front porch.

Saying goodbye to Miranda and the Bostons.

Three hour car trip to Tori's

Saying goodbye to Tori :(

Hour trip home.

SLEEP.

That's pretty much a condensed telling of my trip and the reunion. I love them all so much. I'm not as sad now, because I feel pretty confident that we'll all see each other againn :)

Signing out now! Oh I almost forgot, I auditioned for White Christmas last night. Just thought I'd throw that out there :)

Goodnight!

Somebody hasn't been posting in a while. hehe Oops.

So....I've been pretty busy. A lot has happened since I last posted. Here's a list.(because you know how I LOVE lists.)

School has started. UGH. Though it's not too bad. Here's my schedule:

Chemistry. My teacher is crazy, and I haven't learned anything. She's alright as a person though.

U.S History. My teacher is pretty great. She loves "big letters and pretty colors" Yay!

Lunch with Mrs. Hall. Highlight of my day.

Algebra II. The teacher is actually making me enjoy that class. A little. haha Big accomplishement.

Choir. UGH. Don't get me started. I am grateful to have a class where I don't do anythign though..

My grandfather past away...

He was 97. You know, I think he's happier in heaven, where he doesn't have constant doctors appointments, and medicine to take, and he can be with my Grandmother and all of his family up there. So yes, I am very sad, but I think our loss will bring my family closer.

I started tap class again. No ballet though.

I've had a ton of homework. Oh joy.
Once again, I'm terrible at posting and writing on my blog. This is two weeks later, so I just thought I'd end it here. hehe Sorry :P

Why have I invested three years of friendship into a friend that's just going to forget about me when I'm gone?

That's how I feel. Not because she's moving, not because I tend to make myself the "third wheel", it's just because I've finally realized that our friendship is pretty much one sided. And I guess in her case I understand. She's moved around her whole life, so when she does make friends, she doesn't grow too attached to them because she's afraid of moving, leaving, and having to make a new set of friends. She's constantly uprooted, so it's impossible to have a real home. Except for her family. Her Mom is her best friend, and her family is her real home.
Bull. Sure I've never been in that situation before, but you can have best friends besides your Mom, they're in a totally different species of best friend! Maybe I'm being selfish, but why is everything that I do for her not returned? That's not exactly the best way of wording it, but that's kind of a general way of saying it. Why do I feel that the friendship is one sided? I mean, I constantly have to make an effort to get something out of her, and the more I look back, the more I realize that it's ME that's pushing through the hallway to get her attention so that I can stop and say something, never HER. You know what I mean?
IT'S SO FREAKIN' FRUSTRATING!!
I feel like she's played the game of best friend, just going along with it, but I'm having so much trouble believing her. She's never told me that I'm her best friend, so does that mean that she really doesn't care about me as much as I do her? I think of her as a stinkin' sister, I've always seen her as a sister I never had. And yet I feel like it's not returned.
Let me just say that I can so relate to Mr. Cellophane.
She talks to everyone else so easily, but why not me? I just feel like I'm this annoying fly that has buzzed around her for the past three years, and she's been trying to gently spray bug poison on me, but I just haven't seen it because I was too busy buzzing.
I really don't think she'll miss me when I'm gone. She'll just move, keep in contact with Abbie, and Preston, and James, and Mary(and Hannah), and maybe Ryan. But me? Nah. I'm not worth the effort. I'm not popular like everyone else. Sure, they like me, but they probably wouldn't want to be in a room alone with me.
It makes me sad. I wanted to finish high school with her. I've always wanted that "partner in crime". You know, the one you can always count on? The one that you share a lifetime of memories with? But I guess I've been fooled. How silly of me.
Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe...I'm just making this all up and my tendency to over analyze everything is getting the better of me? Maybe my low self esteem is getting to me.
Never mind. I don't have low self esteem.
I just wish I could get a sign from her that I'm NOT making this up.
But somehow I have the feeling that I'm not going to get it.
Oh well. "I guess I'll move on, find other friends just as good, and forget about it"
FAT. CHANCE.
I hope I'm not just imagining this. I hope I'm not trusting our friendship enough at the time because of our lack our contact since Governor's School.
I hope I'm wrong.